Complications

Today has been kinda problematic. After school we stayed a bit to practise cheers (mostly for those who are gonna perform at the Bon fire tomorrow) I'm doing really good! It's so much fun. Suddenly Mr Ptomey (principal) comes out to talk.

"What are you girls doing?"

"Just practising cheers for tomorrows Bon fire, we'll be out soon!"

"Is Germany on the squad too? *Me offended* I mean Sweden"

"Yeah"

"Did you have try outs?"

"Yes"

"Official ones where everyone could try out?"

"Noo..?"

"Don't you think that's kinda unfair to the girls that didn't make it before? I don't want any angry parents calling. You should reconsider this" Walks away...

WHAT IS THAT!? He's seen me practise with the cheer squad for three weeks now, he told Stacy it was okay, and he even gave her a specific code to be able to order my uniform! And now he comes with this? What can I do, I wasn't here while try outs, shouldn't I have a chance too? I mean. Those girls who didn't make it had their chance, I should have mine. There's a reason they didn't make it, and it's not like I'm taking anyone's place: They have different amount every year, Stacy chooses the ones that are good enough. If I wasn't good enough I would not be on the squad. I guess he doesn't understand that. It just feels crappy if I won't get to prove my skills, not even getting a chance. Am I not as much worth as Doniphan people? sigh.

Stacy was really upset. She was almost crying because she felt so bad. It was not her fault! She just didn't think people were that narrow minded. We dont have cheerleading in Sweden. Those girls can try out next year again, I can't. Sorry for not being perfect... We'll just see how everything goes. It is turning into a big thing. Stacy called the newspapers here in Doniphan, and they're probably gonna interview me and the other exchangestudents. Funnn. Collecting signatures anyone?

FCCLA kickoff today! FCCLA is a group at school doing things for the community and stuff. Sounds lame but it's not! We get to arrange dances, help out in the blood mobile, create locker signs, have like a fashion show in our promdresses at a home for older people etc. They do fun stuff, it does not take too much time, there's lots of fun people, and you get to do something good! At the kickoff they had different games and stuff. It was okay, but what I enjoyed most was seeing all these fun people. Kim is so hilarious! Hanging out with her NEVER gets boring. I can sit and laugh at her all day. Tarryn is one of the most talkative people I've ever met! With her it's never quiet! I just love everyone here, and since you have different classes with different people you just get to know new people all the time. I had a fun time at foods too, being partner with Ryan lol. I might buy him a pink crayon, the blue one is kinda boring. Sometimes when I meet new people it's confusing though. Everyone knows who I am, but I don't know them! I always forget names and faces, it's embarassing! I used to be one of those people who complained about people like that. Like: That's just an excuse for being too lazy to learn their names!. Now Im one of them, but it's not laziness.

After FCCLA we went to the first meeting of One act. It's a drama group that each year performs a play at different places, and competes in it too against other schools! Seems like so much fun, and ould fit me perfectly! (Accept for if I don't make cheersquad and goes Volleybaling istead, that won't work).

Tomorrow's the Bon fire, fun! US cheer's are having "dresscode" tomorrowin school. They usually have it here on game-days. We're wearing our red cheer-shirt and blue jeans, not that special, but anyways Makes us stand out. Thursday's theme (Volleyball day) is "Black out" (everyone is wearing all black) That's exciting too, to get to see my first game! I think Friday might be Football game, but not sure. The cheerleaders sometimes wear their uniforms in school, it's so cute! (btw, "Cute" is like the most used word here!) I love those uniforms so much.

Can't wait until this weekend (Labour-day? some kind of celebration anyways) and we're going to the lake. Shaylee is bringing her jetski, and her boyfriend is taking his boat. It's gonna be so much fun!

Stayed up until two last night reeding prom-magazines and checking up dresses at different webpages, I was hooked! I'm really picky with my dress, but I found two that I practically fell in love with. The blue one is on the picture. The white one is a fabolous strapless yet pretty simple dress with a big fluffy bottom. Just the way I like it. A white one would look awesome with a nice tan! I could so for that. Blue is nice, but everyone is wearing blue! I wanna stand out. And all the planning! Hair, make-up, shoes, bag, tan, teeth, facials, manicure, pedicure, dates, just the whole preparation thing! Planning what to do after, ordering limousines, watching movies about prom. Everything has to be perfect. Can't wait. (Yes, prom is not until April/May something but anyways!) I'm gonna be so nice to everyone! Wouldn't it be awesome to become both Homecoming princess AND prom queen? (Oh God, Am I dreaming too much again?) I don't care. Living in the fantasies of a perfect world is my thing.

Please friends. If you don't have facebook yet, get it! I'm on there more often than msn nowadays, and it's there I'm uploading goodies for you. (Bdb takes so much time!)

I have not forgotten.

Pearl.